Well…it’s the Friday before Christmas…it’s the most wonderful time of the year. Last Christmas was one full of excitement and anticipation. I was wildly uncomfortable, on doctor prescribed bed rest, settling in for the eight week stretch until my twins were born.
This christmas is bitter-sweet for me. Oh so sweet because we celebrate our boys’ first christmas. Just the thought of all the holiday cheer is enough to make me giddy, but add to that two little monkeys (MY monkeys) crawling around amidst all of it is enough to make me start bawling like a baby. The bitterness comes from the fact that I head back to work in the new year. I love love, LOVE my career, but it feels like only yesterday I was cursing my c-section recovery, moaning in agonizing pain with every step I took, and telling myself that this wouldn’t last forever. In a year, I’d be back to my self, but at that time, it felt like it would take an eternity. And now, here it is. I am no longer in pain. I am feeling like I’m back to my old self. My body is back, my energy is back, my boys aren’t babies…they are turning into….well..little boys! And I’m heading back to work. It came so fast. Just like everyone said it would. Is it me or does having kids hit some sort of “fast forward” button on life?
Over the holidays, I have some decisions to make. This blog is a labour of love for me. And I enjoy it thoroughly. On the other hand, I barely have time to truly commit to it being a full-time mom of twins. I started it to show I could be a mom and have it all without being a nut. But, it can make you a little nutty to make such a commitment when you have two little humans relying on you for their basic needs 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. How will I maintain it when I’m a WORKING mom of twins? I’m torn between taking a hiatus, or going down to one post a week. Or leaving it altogether.
I imagine that all moms make decisions like this once they become moms. There are only 24 hours in a day, and we can only do so much.
Sharing my thoughts with my fellow bloggers, my loyal followers, and my friends and family that follow me is very cathartic. Not only do I feel good getting out what I want to say, but it’s nice to know I may have helped someone. Whether it is with a parenting tip or a beauty dilemma! All equally important in a modern mom’s world!
So I thought I would share the dilemma I face. Maybe there is someone out there who’s had to make a similar decision and can offer me some insight.
For today, I’d like to continue with my fun friday theme and share something with you that I hope you can enjoy.
So, I make my own baby food, in addition to Baby Led Weaning which is basically starting your children on non pureed solids at a young age. This combination has worked well for us. We mostly feed the boys what we eat, and when I do make things like soups and smoothies for them, I try to make stuff that my husband and I will enjoy as well. I’d like to share this recipe for a great dessert/shooter that I concocted the other day, it was an accidental discovery after I made something for my babies.
I blended together a can of coconut milk and a banana as a smoothie for the boys. Last night, my husband was in the mood for dessert and we both wanted a “holiday” drink. I poured 2 ounces of this tasty drink into a shaker with 2 ounces of Bailey’s. The result was some delicious coconutty banana goodness that I wouldn’t mind having again. I’m sure if I took a few seconds to google this, I’d find this drink already exists, but what fun would that be? I like to live in my own world and pretend like I’m the only genius that thought of it.
It’s more “island vacation” than “tis the season”, but I think anything with Bailey’s at Christmas time can be passed as a holiday treat. I hope you guys get a chance to try it.
In the meantime, I will be enjoying the next 10 days or so with my family and loved ones and taking at least a tiny break from my blog. I have mad respect for my fellow bloggers who post regardless of the holiday or time of year or day of the week. Many of you blog live and many of you put the work in ahead of time so you still have scheduled posts for us to read. I simply cannot fathom this right now. I’ll be back in the new year, refreshed, and ready to complete what I’ve already committed to (another summary post about my top parenting books), and a decision on what I will do with “Modern Twin Mom”.
I wish all of you much love, health, and happiness, and I’ll talk to you in 2013!